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Personal realities are malleable. Many of us believe to this day that Abraham Lincoln wrote the Gettysburg Address on the back of an envelope. Why should we not? We had it on the good authority of our schoolteachers. If you are reading this, and you believed that, I’m not going to change your life by telling you it’s not so, but you may have to make a minor adjustment in your reality if and when you find I’m telling the truth.

I’m glad I didn’t know the truth before just a few minutes ago. If I had, the above portrait would likely have not come to be. Here is the sequence: I was listening to an acoustic performance by Jackson Browne of “These Days” and then “Running on Empty.” This was after his induction into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame (2004) but probably not by much. I thought of Suzanne Vega and “Luka,” probably because she and her song entered the public consciousness about the same time as JB’s “Lives in the Balance.” Watched a vid of “Luka” with lyrics and then “The story behind Luka.” (True: a nine-year-old boy named Luka lived upstairs from her; curiously, his last name was also Vega. False: he was not abused, to Suzanne Vega’s knowledge.) While watching “The story behind Luka” I realized that “Luka” was the only song of Suzanne Vega’s that I knew! That wasn’t right. So I found a vid of her doing “Solitude Standing,” then thrilled to her born-to-sing-folk voice, and then the impulse came to freeze the vid and do a quick portrait. Seeing an empty and torn envelope, I remembered Lincoln’s memorable scribbling on the back of such and thought, “Ms. Vega deserves that same quirky immortality–it’s perfect, isn’t it?–let’s see what happens.” (That is a paraphrase; I can’t remember what I was thinking, but that was the spirit of it.) The sketch went well. They so often don’t. I decided to post it on my blog, but I wanted details of Lincoln’s envelope. Then and only then did I discover that the envelope story was a myth.

So, weirdly, like an episode of Seinfeld, it all ties in. The real Luka wasn’t abused. The real Gettysburg Address was twofold: pencil on blue paper, and ink on White House stationery. (It also took two weeks to write, and not the handful of minutes the legend gave it.) Even my drawing is myth in a way: I jazzed up the drabness of pencil and grayness by using photo-editing to do a blue-tint color enhancement.

But the real Suzanne Vega has a real and beautiful voice, and if you’ve only heard “Luka,” you’d be in for a treat if you sought other songs of hers.

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Within less than a week two people who mean the world to me independently made reference to their mortality, and that gave me a two-ply shudder. It is horrifying to imagine the world without them. For some reason I responded with this poem, which is illustrated and calligraphed above:

no passing zone

within the confines of these words
you may not age nor die
you may grow wings like malls or birds
you may well sing and sigh
but save your sorrow save your deaths
for far-from-now occasions
and draw here now your sweet clean breaths
and lave your life’s abrasions
i do not want to mourn or miss
you confidante you soulmate
i want your word your smile your kiss
more time to file to collate
rejuvenate and be refreshed
a spirit shower will do
be loved be savored be encreched
and do not wonder who

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How this drawing came to be: Last February I sent my friend Karen, who has done me innumerable favors, a dozen yellow, meaning Friendship, roses, with a card that read KAREN, YOU ARE ALWAYS THERE. I SURE APPRECIATE IT. LOVE, GARY. After she got them and thanked me I asked her to please send me a photo, since I’d never seen them. (We live in different cities.) She graciously did so, and I started a drawing based on the photograph, then stopped in mid-line, following the “put this away for a while” hunch. Today I had another look at it, and the oxymoronic “Rose Fell” popped into my head. Then Faye Dunaway, in a western-southern accent, in LITTLE BIG MAN: “…and I am a Fallen Flowah.” Then Arthur Brown, self-proclaimed “God of Hellfire,” sang the opening lines, quoted above. Then a slide show of Man’s Inhumaneness to Flora and Fauna informed my acrostic.

About Arthur Brown Wikipedia has these trivia of interest:

“Brown quickly earned a reputation for outlandish performances, which included the use of a burning metal helmet, that led to occasional mishaps, such as during an early appearance at the Windsor Festival in 1967, where he wore a colander on his head soaked in methanol. The fuel poured over his head by accident and caught fire; two bystanders doused the flames by pouring beer on Brown’s head, preventing any serious injury. The flaming head then became an Arthur Brown signature.

“On occasion he also stripped naked while performing, most notably in Italy, where, after setting his hair on fire, he was arrested and deported.”

Lastly, one definition of “fell” is an adjective meaning “likely to cause or capable of causing death.” Grateful acknowledgment is given Merriam-Webster, available online.

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Here the acrostic is needed more for compositional unity than for meaning. The spoon, the jumpropers and the acrostic make a near-equilateral triangle that, like The Dude’s rug, “really ties the room together.” But the acrostic also helps create tension between specificity and transcendence, with an overlay of ambiguity. One way to read it is “Anu USS Gut Throne hers erst.”