You have decided

In the last few seconds, you drew breath,/Moved blood,/Built a thought.

You have decided to do these things/For your betterment/And to see what happens. Soon you will review/Plans for the maintenance of your livelihood,/Appeasements of the wants and aches that drive you,/And speculative wanderings/That lead you to places/Where you feel more welcome/And less wrong.

There are things you must fight for./You have decided to fight,/But you have not decided/How fiercely.

When you have decided/To channel your fierceness/Into that battle with that part of yourself/That has been wheedling you astray/In the name of Not-Ready-Yet…

And I-Shouldn’t-Have-To…

And I-Can’t…

When you have silenced that constant/Seductive whisper of doubt/Of distraction from your truer/Striving self…

Then all your other decisions will follow

Organically.