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to Roxanne Doty

the novelist has a dozen dartboards/one for gender one for ethnicity one for occupation and so forth

she has thrown her darts and now her main character is a dwarf from lithuania/who is a cis-male entertainer/with three sisters

well, this will be a roller coaster

doing her due diligence she searches on “lithuanian dwarf”/and learns some history/specific to the grand duke of lithuania/known as vytautas the great

he had done time in the german order/and returned to court in 1392/with a taste for entertainment/in the form of jesters and dwarfs

the novelist’s eyes widen

she realizes that writing way-back, way-elsewhere historical fiction/is something she has needed to do

and that the future henry IV fits right in is a fine bonus

but–all that RESEARCH! all that WORK!

she shrugs and then squares her shoulders

i am no stranger to either

it will broaden my horizon

build toughness of character

she was older than i

and it was long ago that we loved. news

of her peaceful death unlocked a room

and in the room was a bed

and in the bed were our younger selves

enjoying each other as if there

were no tomorrows.

i can’t look at them

but i can hear them in their in-betweens,

with hearing so acute

i can hear fingers stroking hair,

fingertips sliding down sweat-sheened flanks.

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so many tomorrows later

i don’t have tears

and the grief is a soft whisper

of acknowledgment.

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leaving the room

i wonder about new loves, if any

with an odd optimism

but also the pang

that comes with the knowledge

that with my passing

passion ends.

a fat guy makes a rainbow in his yard

with thumb on hose-end mist w/disregard,

then prisms turn to dewdrops. abelard

abandons eloïse; a cruel dis card.

they’re many poet laureates, and disbarred

attorneys quote them. it’s a vile canard

to deal a friend on wings of mallards. hard

enfardeling a rhyme that leaves it jarred.

one three five seven

odd numbers e’en intervals

hey, what are the odds?

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wake up and feel odd

once vertical things e’en out

stay vertical, friends

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e’en at its darkest

half our planet is dazzling

when seen from above

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“what’s with the E’ens, Gair??”

“for the punchline, friend: even

Even can be odd.”

You look like you couldn’t decide

To be cat, dog, opossum, or otter

So you got in a blender and transmogrified

To a short, fluffy-furred drink of water.

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You slink and you scamper about,

An inquisitive seeker of stuff.

With your radar installed at the tip of your snout

It is joy to both skitter and snuff.

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It is weird to see you on a leash.

You belong to the wild, not to peoples,

They domesticate, sure, and you’re precious, but sheesh,

you need Freedom like churches need steeples.

right about now the executioner/is flexing his axe-wielding arms/because the cruel crowd thrust thumbs in condemnation/of the unlucky sap whose job title is Entertainer/and must now be entertaining with his amazing flying head

rite here, the bloodletting/the catharsis the appeasement/the conversion of unspeakable to a circus act

right you are and wright i am/brightness is as part of me as my middle name/a gift from my grandmother caroline/who succumbed to kidney failure four years before my birth

and here we are/in our wretched glory/and I with a this minute two-day stubble/feeling it’s time to slice that legion/wielding a tri-bladed bic

something bothers us/and a shave will help me/and 250 milliliters of clean clear cool water will help you/and here’s to our betterment

personal anarchy

to my friends Anita and Eric Mahaffey

when i was young and uneasy/in arizona’s glendale elementary school district #40/the regimentation was constant

chorus teacher miss heath/a good-souled if misguided pouter pigeon of a lady/had us sing “this is my country”/and march in place while singing “you’re a grand old flag”

and of course we said the pledge of allegiance/first thing every school day

and our newspapers were the arizona republic/and its sibling the phoenix gazette

both published by eugene s pulliam, rabid anti-communist and anti-bureaucrat

we also read the more provincial glendale news-herald/which was indeed heraldic

and as a consequence/the rules were deeply ingrained in this schoolchild/in the land of barry goldwater

(fun fact: i have grown to admire Mr AuH2O)

and you don’t just shrug off such insistent, relentless regimentation

but you resist/you fight back/even many decades later/to dethrone the despotic beast within

you learn to make functional pottery/and you make yourself an Anarchy Cup

and you learn to prepare food for yourself/and you make your meals anarchic

go on the griddle to go off the grid

buy yourself a halfloaf/of batter than none sourdough/extra sour and lumpish

use its stevedore heel/to have mayoed tuna with dillpickle/for an open-faced breakfast microsandwich/and eating it

then you spread the same tuna on the next, larger slice/and sprinkle sunmaid raisins/on the tuna substrate/and eat that too, washing the bites down to gulletsville/with black sumatran coffee in your Anarchy Cup

and then let sanity prevail, drawing the line/at spreading blueberry yoghurt/on a third, mayoed-tuna slice

instead pouring a second cup of coffee

sweetening and blondiefying it/with half&half and blue agave sirup

and give thanks to Sweet Anarchy

and being kingless, queenless and rookless

and ready to burst from the early-day’s starting gate

with intolerance for caste-based bigotry

and a fierce passion for fairness

determinationku

determination:

YOUR determination is

indeterminate.

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youcandoitku

adversity is

your whetstone. you sharpen up

when you clash with it.

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makethebadbetterku

what a mess! –so what?

pick up ONE sock–cry Victory!

DON’T add to the mess. 🙂

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changefocusku

yes, you have problems.

someone out there is worse off.

how might you best help?

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laughallthewaythroughku

warren zevon said

“enjoy every sandwich”

with mere weeks to live.

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thankyoubobdiniroku

“you talkin’ to me??”

YES, YES, whoever you are.

need a hug? hee go!!

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Note: When my daughter was a toddler, she said “Hee go” when she was trying to say “Here you go.” I found that immensely endearing.

cattle have a legit beef/with humans

Humans Are Exploitive/And Uncaringly Cruel

almost all humans with cars/murder insects without remorse

And They Raise Meat Animals/For The Express Purpose Of Slaughtering Them

humans would be better off/not eating meat

WHAT A SHAME THAT MEAT TASTES/SO F%¥&#@G GOOD, eh?

a New World is coming

It Will Have Either Wiser Humans/Forced-To-Be-Good Humans/Or No Humans

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please join The Legitimate Beef Company

and don’t have a cow

Or A Bull

OR A STEER

between the surgical scars

nestled in the palmist’s map of divination

a cherry awaits placement among molars

there to be flex-pressed until she bursts

and cascades her flavor over a nimble tongue

that teams w/teeth to strip her stone of meat

the stone placed like a tongue-set jewel

and pluck’d by scarred-hand fingers

while the meat is sent for processing

to become an essential part

of a poet