twisted roots

first there was foliage
in the form of weeds and the offshoots of insufficiently-pruned trees

pull
clip
lop
snip
hoe
rake
cram
tote
the ladder is old aluminum flimsy-bound
the muscles have to be told to strike like a snake but stronger
the dumpster fills quickly
and the work is done just as it’s getting too hot to continue

this old guy
he said done
he changed shirts and off he run
with a walk far hit a bar give the man a beer
this old guy’s unwinding here

just like he did in days of yore
only scaled down for sixty
no more for him the allnight casino grind
nor the strip joint lustrush
nor the blindinglight headspike of a payback hangover

no
but
three bottles of bud and a shot of jack over two hours and a looseness occurs
and the twisted roots are recalled and toasted to

and there was a nonslot machine with puzzles & games
and the yore-beloved “WORD DOJO” was on the menu
and the old guy scored places one through seven in seven tries winning five replays
and marked his scores with the days-of-yore nom de guerre “RUSTY”
and soaked up the libations with a forbidden cheeseburger (provolone) and onion rings

and with a rueful yet game grin
this old guy came rolling “home”

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This is the first Valentine’s Day since 1988 that I wasn’t part of a couple. Naturally I feel a little strange. The strangeness transliterates into the above page.

valentine-ku for the once-loved

the hole in the heart
is another heart. it makes
sense and yet doesn’t.

Better times are ahead, though, Friends. Happy Valentine’s Day to all!

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THREE YOGIS

The world tells one big story
However, many subplots lie doggo
Regard him who observes by looking
Enjoy a pic-a-nic basket with undotted i
Enfold your unself in a tale of thronged Siddhis

I hope Hanna-Barbera will take this all in good fun, and not as copyright-infringeable territory. After all, they cheerfully “borrowed” characters from THE HONEYMOONERS for their Flintstones and Rubbles.

Yogi Berra is a national treasure, whose “You can observe a lot by looking” is a good first lesson in portraiture. Long live Lorenzo Pietro Berra!

I was going to work “A tale of three Siddhis” into the poem but I have a quirkish aversion to including a word in the body of the poem that is also one of the words of the acrostic–not that I haven’t violated that stricture from time to time.

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My younger brother Brian is Nifty-Great today. Well, RHYMES with Nifty-Great, anyway. He and I rebonded in brotherhood yesterday via yardwork and bulk trash hauling. Long live Brian Clemens Bowers!

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So: Once upon a time an unyoung man packed up a portion of his belongings and left the magical land of Verdantia, and shortly after found himself in Bottomofanashtray City. It was important and necessary that he do so, but one of the consequences of the move was a sense of dislocation, similar to that sung about by Tony Bennett in the lovely ballad “I Left My Heart in San Franscisco.”

This is only the first page of a long chapter. One does not experience loss of place in quite the way one experiences loss of a loved one.  The place, presumably, is still there. But just as “a river is never the same,” “you can’t go home again” becomes more and more true the longer the away-time is.

There is evidence that a subatomic particle can be two places at once. (Google “double-slit experiment” if you’d like to know more.) And we certainly feel another location when we send loving thoughts to a bereaved friend. “Somewhere over the Rainbow/Way up high” is where we may feel we belong. If you want to go there in a charming way, use keywords “over the rainbow” “Iz”–and tell Iz that Gary sent you.

Good night, Mrs. Calabash, wherever you are. You too, Mr. Durante.

when we hurt
we take

a pill or pills
a vacation
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we are urged to ask our doctors if such&such is right for us
seconds after being told that with such&such death due to younameit has happened

when we hurt we don’t want to hurt anymore
so the child in us looks for something to make it go away
though the adult in us knows that the smiling relieved people on the tv
are carefully chosen actors
well compensated for their false testimony

of course now and then we get a caption: “actual patient”
but i never met a person who  wasn’t one

i hurt
so i’m taking a moment
to stack up these distractive musings
side effects include mild repetitive motion syndrome
blankeyed stares due to wondering what’s real have happened

to see if these words are right for you
ask your midbrain

January is finally in the rear-view mirror. Here’s hoping February is better. However . . .

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Here’s a sketch I did during the final hour of my employment at Sedona Winds. I look dispirited. However, here’s how my Facebook update read:

“Last day of work for Sedona Winds included a lot of hugs from residents and staff, some incredulity that I was leaving, and a kajillion wish-me-wells. An award-winning photographer gave me a beautiful signed photo of a segment of our red-rock surrounds, and a sweet lady from upstairs gave me a couple of homemade gluten-free cookies and a couple of storebought gluten-saturated confections. I learned a lot about latter life from these folks and I will miss them mightily.”

Then I went home and to bed, and behold, my left leg started acting as if it had burst a cyst on the side of the knee. Stiffness/worsening pain. By morning I could hardly walk. However, it felt better when I walked around some. Things were looking up. However . . .

I finished packing and my now former Sweetheart, Denise, drove me to Phoenix. The move is emotional as well as physical. Denise and I are parting ways. However, we hold good thoughts for a better future. However . . .

The leg is getting worse. I walked a lot, but it loosened only a little, and stiffened again as soon as I sat down. However . . .

I now have a Limp joke.

How can you not limp and yet walk with a pronounced Limp [O Zen Master]?
Walk briskly and say the word “Limp” every other step. You are now walking with a pronounced Limp.

[WAAAA waaaah . . .]

0130150929-00~2“Remember who you are.” So Mufasa, the Lion King, admonished Simba, heir to his throne.

Packing up my belongings, deciding what to keep and what to toss, I found the boxes containing the shirts I’d kept from the footraces I was in, mostly in the 80s and 90s. The first one was the MetroChallenge 10K, October of 1982. More than fifty others followed, most memorably the 1984 San Francisco Marathon.

Tomorrow is the Sedona Marathon, whose ancillary events include a 5K. I’d intended to enter the 5K but the onus of “heading up moving out” (see previous post) makes the 5K out of the question. As it is I’ll be leaving a day later than I’d originally planned.

But there is a 5K in my future, and then a 10K, and then a half marathon, after which I’ll decide whether or not a full marathon is beyond my sexagenarian reach. That’s part of remembering who I am. There’s nothing like the finish line of a footrace to make me feel capable–and I don’t get to the finish line without being on the Right Track.

Another part of remembering who we are, that gets less talked about, is remembering our mistakes and failings. I’ve got a bagload of failings and a boatload of mistakes. The cooldown after a workout will be a good time to reflect on those. “Go, and sin no more,” possibly the greatest advice to be found in the Bible, is also the hardest advice to follow–but let’s try, Friends!

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gently dream’d

gossamer slipt on her sweet lyrish hips & it set a silver mood
enter distractions & traffic infractions on 8 trucks & also a scooter
next is their exodus & Ah alone at last–alas romance seems to elude
tendered apologies render’d her all at ease now for the crackers & Gouda
less from the strategists more from the magic-kiss’d wishing to circumvent DOOOOOOM
you on the pedestals–we bid you cease menace to us so please/kindly get clue’d

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heading up moving out

relocation
is a chore
toiletries
and much much more
must be plucked
and boxed and loaded
then withal
they’re hit-the-roaded
sighs and tries
and some embraces
one will leave
yet leave his traces

Alas, my Sweetheart and I are parting ways. I load up a few things today and the rest Sunday. It is a time of some vulnerability and much reflection.

Here is a rare foray into panelized cartooning, which I will dedicate to a blog-follower of mine with whom I’ve traded quips over the front desk where I work. His initials are BS, and that’s no BS. BS, I trust you’re a BLAZING SADDLES fan. Hope so, anyway–it will make this cartoon of mine instantly gettable.

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Thanks to Mel Brooks, on whose coattails I’m riding for this one. Mel, you’re the greatest.