when poets collide

sara teasdale

met edna st. vincent millay

near the front desk

of the martha washington hotel

in new york city

in february 1913.

they had tea and hit it off,

later cruising 5th avenue on the top of a bus.

sara was established,

vincent had just won acclaim for “Renascence,”

and yet though sara was eight years older

they were both in their twenties.

later vincent wrote her mom

that “I call her Sara and she me Vincent”

and “. . . I love her . . .”

and quoted these teasdale lines:

“I hoped that he would love me,/And he has kissed my mouth,/But I am like a stricken bird/That cannot reach the south/For tho’ I know he loves me/Tonight my heart is sad,/His kiss was not so wonderful/As all the dreams I had.”

and sometime near the end of 1917

vincent wrote “First Fig”

which contained what her sister norma said

was “surely the most quoted and mis-quoted quatrain in America”:

“My candle burns at both ends;/It will not last the night;/But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends—/It gives a lovely light!”

the meter and rhyme

are strikingly similar to teasdale’s

and so these lines of mine humbly suggest

that the one would not exist without the other.

Monday I made these four mugs.

Tuesday I had an appointment with the urologist.

Wednesday I set about trimming the mugs.

Not all of the mugs survived trimming. I went too deep with one and cut through it. So I reconstituted the trim scraps and remade a fourth mug, a sort of big brother to the others.

I had enough reconstituted scrap to pull four handles, and one by one I affixed them to the mug bodies via the Slip&Score method.

This went well with the three smaller mugs, and I still had session time, so I carefully trimmed the still-soft larger mug and put the last, largest handle on it, completing the quartet.

The NCAA’s annual basketball tournament is colloquially known as March Madness. For one who strives to be One With Clay, March Mudness is a better fit. 🙂

once upon a time certain honorees

were given a key to the city

by the city’s grateful mayor

in phoenix arizona where i now live

my town waited till 2019

and gave its first key to randy johnson

johnson has become a photographer

but in the fall classic of 2001

he won the world series for the arizona diamondbacks

he was our paul bunyan

stilt-leggedly striding to the pitcher’s mound

a lawnmower mowing down the opposition

he killed a pigeon once

fastball turning an unlucky bird to feathers

the ball he threw was also ruled dead

so we gave this freak of nature a free key

and phoenix became the land of the freak,

home of the bravo, in the key of d-backs

Disorganization

Has made such a mess

Solution? Sedation

And Hydraulic Press.

Our life burden’s pieces

Of angst pranks and clay

Press Press and praise Jesus:

Pull cord–Bombs Away.

All those cubic meters

To smithereened flatness

The roaches and skeeters

The Physical Fatness

Made thin as a flapjack

Through huge PSI

Fold, stash, take a nap, Jack;

Wave Troubles goodbye.

we are told space is curved

and that gravity does it

and it gets us unnerved

when they show us a dimple

on a 2D flat page

yet there’re three Ds in space/and our brains reach a stage/thatbringschaos to  simple

but let e I n s t e I n conceive it

&in 19nineteen

we a l. . .l came tbleevit

though it seemed dis

intuitive

good

bye newton

hello weirdos

grab a futon

warp away

to pull a story out of the twining woodbine/front-load your title to force storytelling

let’s get started

there must have been seven other solved mysteries involving the last betrayal

there must be an imperiled female for whom dawn is the literal deadline

there must be a protagonist thrust into this because they love the imperiled female

it better have been a good and unexpected betrayal

and due to the culturally short attention spans of late we better wrap it up quick

the protagonist is a woman named joelle

she’s desperate to save deena, twin sister of her lost love ed

she’s deduced no footprints because dropped by helicopter

back-stabbing knife must have been whisked away by a drone

motive to exact revenge part-one-of-two for joelle’s falling for ed

whodunit therefore is–sorry kids

out of time

but it’ll be a better story if you write it youself

Today I saw the surgeon/Who’d sliced into my hands/To help my hand health burgeon/And sculpt as clay demands.

The good doctor says that the healing meets expectations and will likely continue for the rest of the year.  After a year, he says, I can’t expect any more improvement. As of now, the only two symptoms of significance are a slight stiffness in my right middle finger and continued tingling of the fingers of my left hand.

I set the wheel to spinning/And formed a mug or two/With confidence a-ginning/And symbiosis true.

The clay body, Ironstone by name, was wonderfully supple and cooperative, and results felt more collaborative than solo-showish.

The serviceable Wareboard/Took on the two with glee/Then Thusséd and then Therefored/”Three fourths of Four is Three.”

The sound of the wheel’s motor augmented with the earcup-like acoustics of the splash tray can sometimes seem like the hum of the Cosmos itself. It is a lovely Alpha Wave maker when the wheel-throwing is smooth sailing.

Alas, the Fourth went sideways/A clay wall bent, then tore./The Clay Gods’ sometimes snide ways/So humble Potter’s core.

Here is when Failure and Success prove they are brother and sister. Big Bro says “Ah well, three out of four beats a poke in the eye with a sharp stick.” But Little Sis whispers, “Let’s take the scrap clay, which is plenty enough for another mug, to the wedging table and reconstitute it better than new. It’s a good exercise, and it’s also good exercise.”

The scrap clay resurrected/Was centered, shaped, and trimmed/And Gloom was redirected/With Wareboard’s glee undimmed.

“Try, Try Again” is ancient wisdom well suited to artisans. Every effort, be it success, failure, or “learning experience” mix, is another rung on the “ladder to the stars” that Bob Dylan sang of in the song “Forever Young.”

Now wrap them, keeping moistness/For handle-adds tomorrow./You’re happy, and your poisedness/Is free from theft and borrow.

The clunky last lines reflect giddiness and satisfaction. Time well spent is truly priceless.

Addiction and Angst go with Zero and Zapped: A to Z

Becoming a high-voltage journey through love’s urgency

Connecting a daughter a lawsuit some roadblocks that vex

Delivering pain then relief from the opposite sex. W

E watch as the narrating damsel’s distressed  POV

Fast-forwards to new love and new need; in her you see you

Get tangled as drug use holds daughter as hostage and yet

Hope’s there, always peeking and promising no more regrets

In dealing with grief and pursuit of joy, grieving pursuer

Just skin-of-teeth holds it together, and not PDQ

Knapsacking her grief for a time to get comfort and sleep

Lift, calibrate–back to the fray–fraidy-cats, welcome in–O

May Heaven have mercy and Luminousness ever limn.

***”

Afterword: My superbly talented poet friend Susan Vespoli sent me a copy of her new book Therefore, Illuminated. It is a continuation of One of Them was Mine, which told in voltaic verse of her unhoused, struggling son’s last few hours of life, and his death by handgun by a (now former) police officer who was later judged to be acting “out of policy.” We learn of the trial and grueling machinations that follow Vespoli’s wrongful death suit; of her daughter in the grip of drugs and depression, who paradoxically views being unhoused and drugged-up as “freedom” and has Vespoli walk a tightrope of helping without enabling; of a search through eHarmony for connection, and finding such with a tall, thin man who gives her, and her journey, much-needed relief and joy; and finally the coinciding of the delivery of the wrongful-death settlement check with a solar eclipse, as if the Universe was writing a poem of its own with a punchline of stunning metaphor.

Friends, I hope you will find Ms. Vespoli’s book on Amazon or via Kelsey Books, her publisher. It tells her compelling journey with brilliant verse, with some in the Abecedarian form as I used above with less grace than she wields.

The baggage of a lifetime’s in a truck

Whose dark exhaust makes hellclouds when it stops

And stings the eyes and lungs of rearguards. “****!”

Says driver Ed. “Someone might call the cops.”

“Step on the gas,” says Davis, riding shotgun.

“Let’s take the lead. My asthma might kick in.”

A dancing advertisement in a lot spun

His sign, and yelled “Hey, Smokey!” with a grin.

open when you’re sad”

said the envelope on the floor.

block letters, but her handwriting.

i was not sad but i was killingly curious,

so i went on whitehouse dot gov,

and in seconds i was furious and terrified

and sad too.

i opened the envelope.

wouldn’t you know it,

another envelope was inside.

“open if you want another chance”

this one said.

hmmm.

do i?

within this envelope

were probably more envelopes

but there was also something that wasn’t.

best guess from size, shape and flexibility

was that it was a hotel room card key.

i did want her.

i thought though that the hoops

she would like me to jump through

were a red flag.

just when i decided to do nothing, though,

my doorbell rang.

.

three weeks later

i am not sad

and i need no further chances.