“Never understood that it ain’t no good/You shouldn’t/Let other people/Get your/Kicks for you…” Bob Dylan, “Like a Rolling Stone”
mayhem is wartime chaos
or a four-hundred-pound left guard after the ball snap
or a school of piranha disassembling a swimmer
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contrariwise, mehhem is the “quiet desperation” henry david thoreau mentioned in walden
it is t s eliot’s j alfred prufrock asking “do i dare to eat a peach?”
it is gonna and not done
maybe and not yes
a mononucleosis of your soul…
and if you think of yourself as a “wage slave”
and/or sigh a lot
and/or get sucked in by endless random reels on ticketytok or instagratis or fuzzbook,
you may be in mehhem’s gentle deathgrip, my friend
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my unsolicited and easily discarded advice is to make a pie chart of your activity and your passivity
doesn’t have to be fancy
or even finished–here’s mine:

and then be brave
change things up some
stop treating yourself like a child you are determined to spoil rotten
and when you find yourself backsliding, rise up and say “Enough of this Mehhem!!!”
or not
wotthehell
it’s only your life
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Grateful acknowledgment to the late Harlan Ellison for the concept behind his groundbreaking The Glass Teat, written last century but still spot-on