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the traveling identity

the car is stuffed and yet

there’s more that needs to go

and the traveler needs to leave in mere hours

and so the traveler does not complete

a final sleep in his rented apartment

which must be empty today

..

packed are boxes and boxes of sculpted birds

and acoustic guitar a bass guitar an amp

and a box containing a birth certificate

and other valuable considerations

..

yet to load is this bag of notebooks

within which the traveler codified his soul

stretched his imagination and his skills

..

it must be loaded

even if something dearly desired must be tossed

..

but a lightbulb over his head

becomes a beacon of hope

..

“climate-controlled storage” he whispers

with a slight smile of relief

..

most of his identity will travel

the rest will stay in the valley he loves

for three months

his soul will travel and yet stay

just a little longer

just a little

Who saved her?

Who saved her? I saved her. I heard her gasping for breath in the next room and rushed in. Her eyes were panicky and wide, but she did not answer when I talked to her. I took steps.

Who saved her? Steel Magnolias saved her. The way she acted reminded me of the low blood sugar seizure Julia Roberts had in the movie Steel Magnolias. So I got something from the fridge, held it to her lips, told her to eat. She tongued it and pinched her lips on it and slowly got some in her. I called 911. As she got a little more sugar in her she regained consciousness and I told her that EMTs were on the way and she probably should get some pants on. She was grateful.

Who saved her? Firemen saved her. An EMT with a kit bag found that her blood glucose level was a dangerously low 33. They made a PICC line and gave her dextrose. She refused an ambulance and signed an official form of refusal, so they told us to monitor her blood sugar frequently and then packed up and left.

The next day I and 911 and some different (though not indifferent) firemen saved her again.

I had been sleeping soundly when her arm fell hard on my torso, twice. I yelped in protest but soon found that though her eyes were open wide she did not respond when I called her name. I went to the refrigerator and opened a bottle of glucose control fluid, one of a four-pack I had proactively bought the day before, but when I put it to her lips it just ran down her face. 911 again sent firefighting EMTs. Again her glucose level was a plummeted 33, but this time an ambulance got her to the hospital and over the next couple of days they tested her and observed her and searched for the why. As of now no one knows why.

Who will save her now? The hospital did not discover why this is happening, but they noted it was an early-morning phenomenon and it tended to follow self-administered insulin injections. So she is off insulin now and onto a different glucose-level controlling medication; and many early mornings have passed, and she has not seized nor otherwise crashed, and she is still alive.

But–who REALLY saved her? Reread and reflect. She saved herself.