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Hurt Transitory

A shadow dot moves across the sun. The innermost planet, Mercury, is transiting. It is throwing its huge little shadow across us, two planets out.

Fallen Rome left us wisdom in her death throes: Sic [Thus] transit [it passes,] gloria [the glory] mundi [of the Earth].

¿Que pasa? ask my Hispanic friends. And one answer was my junior college newspaper, El Tiempo Pasando.

Children are wasting away in at least three global regions. Something is frightfully wrong with the way various influencers are conducting themselves, since this very moments there is so much abundance of foodstuffs that no one on Earth need go hungry.

Some of us hurt, and some of us want to hurt others of us. “That is the way of the world,” we hear. But the world is brave, and the world is new, and the way of the world is as it has never before been.

¿Que pasa?

It it up to us billions.

Today I sculpted a chess-piece perched bird, a pawn, the pawn that remembers Emily Dickinson’s description of Hope as “the thing with feathers.” And if my pawn of Hope makes her transition to the other end of the chessboard, she may transform,

Actualize,

And free us.

“Never understood that it ain’t no good/You shouldn’t/Let other people/Get your/Kicks for you…” Bob Dylan, “Like a Rolling Stone”

mayhem is wartime chaos

or a four-hundred-pound left guard after the ball snap

or a school of piranha disassembling a swimmer

..

contrariwise, mehhem is the “quiet desperation” henry david thoreau mentioned in walden

it is t s eliot’s j alfred prufrock asking “do i dare to eat a peach?”

it is gonna and not done

maybe and not yes

a mononucleosis of your soul…

and if you think of yourself as a “wage slave”

and/or sigh a lot

and/or get sucked in by endless random reels on ticketytok or instagratis or fuzzbook,

you may be in mehhem’s gentle deathgrip, my friend

..

my unsolicited and easily discarded advice is to make a pie chart of your activity and your passivity

doesn’t have to be fancy

or even finished–here’s mine:

and then be brave

change things up some

stop treating yourself like a child you are determined to spoil rotten

and when you find yourself backsliding, rise up and say “Enough of this Mehhem!!!”

or not

wotthehell

it’s only your life

..

Grateful acknowledgment to the late Harlan Ellison for the concept behind his groundbreaking The Glass Teat, written last century but still spot-on

v is for vicissitudes

and venom

vile

and vicious dudes

and vaults where wait ill-gotten gains

and vectored illness

vapored veins

..

but v is not for victory

not with this veiled vainglorious line

the varlets scheme predictably

to let the poor die on the vine

i. non-denial isle

i was talking to my good friend lyle/who was walking his chihuahua kyle/in the midafternoon/when an ICE-y hot goon/pepper-sprayed away my charming smile

after that my recollection’s misty/but i must’ve got a little fisty/what with ICE-man on the ground/and a wannabee hound/yapping that there were yet more fascisti

so we beat it to the subway tunnel/where the thug squad wasn’t apt to funnel/and we got to my place/and I washed off my face/but my left eye wept a salty runnel

manhattan is a ravaged isle/often wonderful and often vile/but the new mayor’s cool/and he’ll take us to school/to learn how to practice non-denial

ii. hot hand

ace of diamonds

ace of spades

sweet mariah’s mons

three queenly maids

iii. got it get it got it get it good

my mom like so many a scold on a tear

claimed if she told me once

she told me a thousand times. au contraire:

’twas only nineteen (said the dunce).

WordPress sent me this image today.

lucky 13

i keep my notions in a cache

of digitalization

three thousand such or so i stash

right here in Gary Nation

and if you read this i am glad

and if you like it i rejoice

we share the journey i have had

and you have heard my online voice.

..

it was a different life i led

way back in twenty twelve

a night clerk in a red-rocked stead

with passions yet to delve

flash forward through this decade-plus

new friends and venues, loves and loss,

and constancy with some of us

and cherishing beneath the gloss.

..

Friends, my soul swells with the warmth you radiate. The most important part of my journey is the heart-to-heart interaction with those I admire and laugh with and love. May we all cherish each other whole-heartedly!

you, tensile

your tensile strength [resistance to being pulled apart]

is measurable [we used to draw and quarter]

spoon breadth and length [height variable with tilt]

is pleasurable [tactilely, tastefully, visually]

be you a sketcher [recommended: ticonderoga black]

or a glutton [feeding your face with pleasuring spoon]

or arrow fletcher [a half-lost profession]

shredding mutton [for a spoonable soup]

..

[so much goes on without a trace this dusk that dawn at seasoned pace yet be you other woman man your brain is like a garbage can and fills with substance miscellaneous nacreous spacious subcutaneous and “that reminds me” is a riff that gives a skunk an air of spliff so pluckable our mem’ry’s strings and plucked we are as on we soldier and rhyme comes lordly from the rings a character named fatty bolger]

thoughts about how fragmented all our personalities must be to navigate our roles

led to a memory of latin class at glendale high school in the late 60s

miss nelson discussing the commentaries of the gallic wars by gaius julius cæsar

and that they began with “all of gaul is divided into three arts”

going to google translate and typing english to latin “all humanity is divided into four parts” yielded a sentence-cased version of this poem’s title

chosen because the evils of the world are divided into four parts in the revelation of saint john the divine

as famine, pestilence, war and death, called “the four horsemen of the apocalypse”

and it may be argued that our personalities are faceted by our response to these four phenomena:

when we seek sustenance we hunt and/or gather

when we are sick we shun our kith and kin and seek medical help

when we contend with rivals and other challenges we alter our blood chemistries as if arming ourselves

and when we face doom we cloud up, deny, negotiate, grieve and accept

..

all of these mindsets will be flavored by love or the absence of love

the big challenge is to integrate them all well before your last meal

summoning the four non-horsefolk kindness, awareness, reason and truth

for a wealthy shift of focus and a well-finished race

a tomato-slicing employee dumped

eighty-eight point eight pounds, forty kilos, of tomatoes into a large container

and filled the container with anti-bacterial “veggie wash” near the veggie-washing sink

and let the tomatoes soak for more than a minute

then dumped out the wash into the sink,

slid the container onto his pushcart,

wheeled the cart back to the workstation,

and began using a mechanical tomato slicer

to slice tomatoes into five-pound heat-sealing bags

one tomato at a time. it is a job

well suited to one with a long-distance runner’s

or afghan-crocheter’s mentality,

someone who drives satisfaction from repetition

and precision.

but even runners and crocheters need some distraction

from repetition that may grow more tedious

with each passing hour. the tomato-slicing employee

found he had just such a need, so he broke up the tedium

by plucking out tomatoes in one specific area of the container

so that a cavity was formed

in the volume of tomatoes, and the cavity became a cave

as the tomato-plucker reached the container’s floor

and additional tomatoes were plucked

from the floor level while the tomato walls,

kept from collapsing by weight-pressure

from the top layers, were pluck-eaten away.

as far as the plucker could tell, this handiwork

did not slow his production, and may in fact

have increased his focus and efficiency.

..

eventually, of course, a wall collapsed, and when it did

the tomato-plucker suddenly realized

that he was unwittingly modeled a form of erosion

that bore a slight similarity

to the process by which structures

like the Grand Canyon

were formed.

he was elated and chagrined to find

that his working time had also eroded away

and he would have to hustle to clean up his station

by clock-out time.

..

as he clocked out he felt regret

that he was no longer in high school

and was this unable to convert his discovery

into a Science Fair project, but he still

felt ridiculously good.

my sweetheart is cold in toledo ohio

o my how i wish i were there

and singing a tropical song me-o my-o

and running my hands through her hair

but pulling up southwestern roots has proved tricky

and doing it right will take months

with phone calls and flights we slip troubles a mickey

and damn the torpedoes for once

..

december the first flips the calendar’s page and

brings her and me closer to fine

with help from an ember as off-broadway stagehand

and membership not quite divine

in thirty-one days we’ll be in ’26

the year we will always remember

for getting our glow with cohabitant kicks

igniting our flame with an ember

above grant street near 16th street flies

a bucket brigade of airplanes

zooming shadows across the long building

on the north side of the street

one by one

..

the landing gears lower

for the runway to the east

..

every two minutes a noise of jetwash

..

the shadows shift by time of day and time of year

..

tubes full of flyers

looking like winged lipsticks

going going going

landing taxiing emptying

moving life along