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in less than two hours the doc will slice my hand and wrist

so clean sheets go on the bed NOW

and as always the fitted sheet tries to not live up to its name

making its mischief first by pretending to be Portrait when it is Landscape

then by spontaneously shrinking three millimeters so that tug mightily as you will the corners never quite line up

not without wrestling and tugging and mattress-lifting and knee-balancing and cursing

but there is some comfort with these machinations in having remembered to perform this uncomfortable task pre-op

and not with fresh incisions

i ate/two hours ago/and have not cleaned up/nor gone anywhere

i fritter/i dawdle

i did put a call in to the surgery liaison lady/because i don’t yet know/when tomorrow i am supposed to show up

got her voicemail left a message

i keep telling myself Get A Move On and my self answers Nothing Doing

but there is something in the nothing that i am doing

and that is charging up/preparing

and taking a quick lookthenlookawayfast

into the abyss

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i would spit into that abyss

but i don’t want any part of me going there

not now/nor soon

The soup is turnip and yellow and bell pepper and barley and vegetable stock and three carrots, softened to succulence in a crockpot overnight

The coffee is from Sumatra, recommended by a magnificently tattooed artisan who makes bells as part of one of Arcosanti’s revenue streams

The coffee is in a mug that the maker calls “The Anarchy Cup,” inspired by a former co-worker who denounced all politicians

And is flavored with half&half and blue agave syrup recommended by an architect friend whose designs were incorporated into buildings made throughout the Valley of the Sun over forty-five years

The bowl of soup is gone but there’s more in the crockpot, cooling

Dessert is Whoppers with the coffee that helps the chocolate dissolve to uncover the malted-milk core

And the Whoppers remind the bachelor of going to the movies with his daughter, now estranged

It is a layered breakfast laced with memory and reminder

Unconventional unto weirdness

Richly satisfying

her scar starts/by encircling her left big toe 96 times/in a tight coil/that looks like a pale toe ring

continues as a single line/to the instep/where it makes a logarithmically-spaced double spiral/ultra-dense at its center/where the line retains its unoverlapping singularity/by flanking itself and sparkling back outward/from the center

and the single line continues/with a floor plan of the house she grew up in/placed above the gastrocnemius muscle of her left calf

the line stops at mid-thigh after having become four condors wheeling around her kneecap

at precisely the two-mile point

because she’s out of disposable funds right now/and recreational laser surgery is not cheap

but she will be back for more

because it is (oxymoron alert) all part

of the grand schematic of things

Mom was a proud Capricorn.

to the late jane bowers stoneman on her 90th birthday

hey there, mom
happy birthday in the great wherever

and here’s hoping you are healed and free
and in the company of some you love

paula was your middle name
perhaps you and uncle paul have reunited

perchance you dream glorious starscapes
perforcedly beyond my or any human ken

your light-green eyes in the sunlit kitchen
you looked into eternity heedless of Hey Mom

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but you always needed times of inaccess
in the many-pillowed bed for a two-hour nap
reading the phoenix gazette
taking a walkered walk in your latter life
how glad i was to make you laugh
dimple up your face
and make you proud to have mothered me
yet there was certainly a good bit of arguing

maybe the argument is now a discussion

only passage and Eternity will tell

miss you, lady

I thought I woke up this morning/But it was afternoon instead.

Oh, I thought I woke up this morning/But the Sun was way up overhead.

Baby, please come to my rescue, and let’s make better use of this bed.

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Tied a string around my finger/But I can’t remember why.

Tied a string around my finger/But my brain’s a cloudless sky.

Maybe it means I should tie one on. My sense of humor can be quite rye.

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They say my brain is shrinking/But it somehow won a prize.

Such tiny thoughts I’m thinking/Want a burg and curly fries.

The MRI says ATROPHY and I can’t wait to put it on my shelf. Now for that burg!

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Notes:

Charlie Gordon was the main character in the Hugo-award-winning short story Flowers for Algernon. He was a mentally challenged man who through brain surgery became super-intelligent, but only temporarily. He recorded his mental rise and decline in the form of “progress reports” and so his decline is especially heartbreaking as his sentence structure loses complexity and his spelling becomes erratic.

A not-so-fun fact is that my own brain has shrunk over that last five years, and the docs say it’s a more significant shrinkage than is deemed normal for someone my age. They say that it’s diffuse, though, and should not be affecting my verbal skills. I consider my writings of late to be my “progress reports.” I’ve stepped up my production–have you noticed? 🙂

Grateful acknowledgment to Bob Dylan for writing “Just Like Tom Thumb’s Blues.” Here’s a taste of his lively lyrics:

Sweet Melinda, the peasants call her the goddess of gloom
She speaks good English, invites you up into her room
And you’re so kind and careful not to go to her too soon
And she takes your voice and leaves you howling at the moon

“Acceptance,” said Sabi, “is paramount.”

“Albinos,” said Wabi, “are weird.”

“You’ve weirdness yourself. Quite a fair amount.”

“You’re one to talk,” Weird Wabi sneered.

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“Look. She’s got some eggs. Instant family!”

“Good point. I would be down with that.”

“Hey, Dabi, you’re IN,” Sab said hammily.

Thus ended the brief, perfect spat.

they’re not making tinderboxes anymore/o well not as many as in years of yore

but we do not have a dwindling

of a huge supply of kindling

in the form of fissile weaponry in store

we never’ve really had a peace on earth/and of enlightenment there is a dearth

but december thirty-first

will see fireworked missiles burst

since we all still live & breathe for all we’re worth

and saith the preacher let us feast & drink/after all our time on earth is but a blink

and throughout our raddled history

there’ve been cliffs and here’s the mystery

we have always muddled past them don’t youAAAAAaaaaa a a a a…..

Happy New Year, Friends, especially to those of you who keep Doom from devouring us all. Here’s hoping that the coming years bring a hard-won maturity to our efforts, and that we the people of this globular starship stop making deadly, life-ending contraptions that perpetuate conflict and hinder our attainment of the Peace On Earth we all so passionately desire.

Personal note: I am ending 2024 having written at least one poem or quasi-poem or fable or reflection every single day since July 25th, making 160 consecutive days. Doing so helped me understand what it would be like to be the mythical Sheherazade, weaving word-nets nightly under penalty of death. Here is a link to that story about storytelling.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Scheherazade

President-Elect Donald Trump (not a Hoax! not a Dream! not an Imaginary Tale!) now warns…

Drum-roll and eye-roll, please…

That unless the Biden Administration acts to address the debt-ceiling issue before he takes office in three weeks and a day, there will probably be a Depression.

Some people still take him seriously, even though “baseless claims” is one of the favorite ways journalists describe things he says.

Oh, by the way, in case you didn’t notice, he wants to buy Greenland and make Canada the fifty-first United States of America. And just in case you didn’t notice the historical record, this is consistent with the dark side of American History known as Manifest Destiny. Thieves in power have throughout American history stolen or swindled or otherwise indecently acquired just about all of what is called America. The short answer to the question “Why, in the name of all that’s decent, do they do this?” is “Decency has nothing to do with it.”

He is also reported to be “walking back” many of his more apocalyptic campaign promises.

And his bromance with Elon “Smells Like Teen Spirit” Musk continues, enraging a few of his minions.

And George Stephanopoulos apologized to him for calling him a rapist and not merely a sexual assailant.

There is poetry in this. After all, “Howl” by Allen Ginsberg is considered just as much a poem as is “To My Daughter” by Weldon Kees, which follows the Sonnet format down dark, corrosive corridors. And Ginsberg started his poem by asserting that good minds have been driven mad.

I don’t know how good my mind is, but I do know that I am a lot madder that I was half a year ago.

Writing a screed about the Great American Come-On is the least I can do, since I am anti-violence but am just as virulently anti-being-violated, both as an American and as a child of Mother Earth.

And, speaking of Mother Earth, does everyone notice that the land Trump covets will be the last havens north of Antarctica from the ravages of global warming? The same global warming that “Drill, Baby, Drill” will exacerbate?

Coincidence, Friends…or Co-Incidents?

Literally, and urgently, I implore all with a conscience and courage to get The Hell out of Here

before it’s too late.