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This is a shot of Crown Royal. Crown Royal was my stepfather Marty Stoneman’s spiritous liquor of choice.

It’s a hair after 9 PM. It might be ill-advised for me to be out so late on a “school night” (I report to work at the airport at 6:30 AM tomorrow), but the NBA Playoffs are on, the Utah Jazz just came from behind to take a 2-1 lead against the Memphis Grizzlies, and I’m enjoying the last of my tater tots at my favorite dive bar, tbe Hideaway Lounge, toasting Marty’s memory, and doing research on a bar-specific double acrostic I intend to do, “Deep Dive.” And I have no current romantic entanglements nor familial obligations, and am enjoying a shallow walliow in melancholy, the way my late, great friend Karen Wilkinson did when she played Beethoven’s “Moonlight Sonata.” I miss Karen with all my heart. I miss Marty too. And I miss the collaboration of Roy Thomas and Barry Smith on CONAN THE BARBARIAN. I am especially thinking of when Conan delivered to the wizard Zukala the body of Zukala’s daughter. Zukala cried with his one good eye. Just before he rode away on his horse, Conan told Zukala something like, “I’ll drink a toast, to the living and the dead, when I come to the next tavern I meet. Farewell.” That’s the important thing I’m doing right now. Here’s to you, my present and absent Friends.

Today’s challenge: Write a poem about a bedroom.

Yesterbed

The boy swims up from slumber and is awake. In this huge strange bedroom of his rich aunt, beneath a densely-woven top sheet and a quilt kaleidoscopably checkerboarded, with a few

Disattaching squares flapped open, there is extra heat across the boy’s legs

And he sees it is brought by bright sunshine, its bedfoot dazzle aswarm

With dust motes, and the boy in a flash realizes that he has been breathing this fine dust, and it is either this

Or the engulfing eiderdown pillow that gives him his one-nostril allergic shutdown. His nose will clear up if he gets up and walks around some. The old bed

Is with its high frame and thicker mattress and springs a sort

Of parachute-jumping-place for the boy, for his stubby boylegs dangle well above the floor, so that when he pushes off

He lands with a jolt. His feet feel the tight tiny curlicues of the weave of the Persian rug. His bare feet rather enjoy the breaking-through-mudcrust sensation

As he walks to the bookshelf. Aunt had told him “Some of your father’s books are here.” CAPTAIN OF THE ELEVEN

Must be one of them. It is probably about football rather than war. But there is DAVE DAWSON AT DUNKIRK as well so who knows. A quick peek confirms

Football. Wow, what thick pages! What weird, laughy dialogue! He puts the book back

And pulls out a pink one: THE PRIMROSE PATH by Ogden Nash. Nash was the “Candy is dandy,

But liquor is quicker” guy. The page he opens it to has a caricature of Adolf Hitler on it, who must have still been alive, because underneath the four lines are “Some day some talented belittler/Will pen a Valentine to Hitler./That gory bigot pedagogical,/Adolf, the Primrose Pathological.” The boy, twelve but fairly bright, sees that this IS that Valentine, or anyway an instrument of belittlement,

And context clues hint that a “pedagogical” person must be a dictator, and a “Primrose Path” must be a bad choice someone is lulled into taking. He checks the copyright date–1935–before he puts the book back. So the Holocaust had already begun…

The boy notices that the bedframe is carved wood, and that in addition to the elaborate, bird-crowded carving at the headboard, the very legs and feet of the bed

Are intricately carved as well. The feet have feline pawish claws. The bedposts–so that’s what a bedpost looks like!–have a swirl to them a bit like the torch

Of the Statue of Liberty. As the boy heads out the door to the preparing-breakfast rattle of the kitchen downstairs, he finds a ditty he never knew he had in his head, asking

If the bubblegum had lost its flavor/On the bedpost/Overnight.

Long ago I was boyfriend to a girl whose birthday was May 3rd. Longer ago than that the pre-disco Bee Gees had a song called “First of May.” I misheard the lyrics, thinking they were “But you and I/Our love will never die/The guests will cry/Come first of May.” So I imagined that, reunited, this couple who loved since they were small and Christmas trees were tall would be wed on May Day. Further, I applied the misheard lyrics to my romantic situation and made the slight change to the third of May, fantasizing that I would marry my sweetheart on her birthday.

Well, Friends, I got a lot wrong. The correct lyric: “But guess who’ll cry/Come first of May.” The song is not about a wedding, but of a love lost and irretrievable. And the metaphor extended to my romance-in-progress. It was doomed. The last letter I got from her, the one saying goodbye, included the inexorably final phrase “that we will always be almost, but not quite, what the other needs.” The last four words of the letter were “Go carefully. Always, M________”

I went, carefully sometimes, a Fool For Love others. I remember M________ fondly, with just the slightest pang. I remember correctly some words of Dylan Thomas: “Though lovers be lost, love shall not…” And I declare that some day the guests will cry.